I have a bad habit of lying awake at night, unable to fall asleep, until I've cleared all thoughts from my mind. I know that it is not possible, but it feels like I went through four years of memories last night before I finally drifted into a peaceful sleep. They all seemed so vivid that at times I had to open my eyes to assure me that I was actually still lying in bed next to my lovely wife, in our home, with our child. That sounds so amazing to me. Our home. Our child. I never dreamed that life could be this amazing. Life gets progessively better after each trial succesfully faced.
I thought about the first time that I ever saw her. Freshmen year of highschool and we had the same Physical Education class together. From the very start we were friends, and I wonder now what life would be like had I not been so shy in my awkward youth and actually found the courage to let her know my true feelings. I shudder to think that perhaps we would not be together now. That thought tears at the very fabric of my soul. All throughout school we managed to remain reasonably good friends, always finding something to occupy our conversations. I think of late night talks with her on the telephone and I smile. She was always beautiful to me, even from the very moment that my eyes first beheld her. The gymnasium lights reflecting off of her perfect hair, and the flawless smile never failed to melt my heart everytime I came to class and saw her. It seems so innocent to remember things that way, but it's the truth. She was, no, still is, my Venus. To me she is the epitome of womanly perfection, in mind, body, and spirit. Just thinking of her can make me abandon my train of thought apparently...
It took us five years to to realize the entire depth of our feelings for each other, and when we did, nothing could hold us back. It was as if five years of passion had been building up pressure under the surface, and with one kiss, erupted with a force so great that for a moment it seemed as if the world stood still. At times when I am alone with her, the world still ceases it's rotation. I am her Adonis, her, my Venus.